Current Mood: Annoyed
Tonight was the first time I've ever experienced sibling jealousy.
Fair enough - granted that I'm the only child...
But my dad came home tonight with a bike for my cousin. I might have mentioned that she's been wanting a bike for quite a while. And although it wasn't brand new, it was the fact that he just went and bought her a bike when I've never got something like that when I was small. I've always wanted a pair of rollerblades, a bike, a nintendo when I was small, and my parents never got me any of those. I had to learn how to rollerblade and ride a bike from my cousin Mary.
I know it's really petty of me. I mean, my cousin and her family has been through some really tough times - way more than our family. And she's here all alone. I'm (almost) all set for life, with a job - earning money, a good course, potentially a job as soon as I graduate, I have my family with me. I mean, I shouldn't be feeling anything but happiness for her, right? RIGHT?
I just can't help it.................!!!
It's been building up the last 2 and a bit months that she's been here. Just little things/habits that annoy me. Like, the way she asks for my things - I'm happy to lend her things, but just ask more nicely! Some things I lend her, never seems to make it back to me, or if they are returned, she doesn't tell me, and I see it sitting on my dresser. Now, my mum knows that I ABSOLUTELY hate her going into my room without asking me (although she still does - but she's my mother!), so it really annoys me that my cousin does it too. Hmmm...I've noticed that I'm very territorial...
So, anyway the point is that I can't really tell her off without making her feel really bad, sad, unwanted...blah blah. Plus, I'd feel guilty about that. Plus plus, I probably do some stuff that she's not use to as well, yeah? So with all these niggly things and the bike incident tonight, I've discovered my green eyes.
I really don't want to feel this way - though I must say, that I'd probably look sexy with green eyes...hahahahahaha
Ah-hem, anyway, I really must be more accepting of things.
7 comments:
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i now have friend's sibling-but-not-really-sibling jealousy!
a bike! i want one too!
ARGH! I want the world on a platter, then I can gobble it all up and absorb all its goodness into my own wellbeing. Yummy. Expect posts on mine soon!
hmm..i usually reserve the word 'territorial' to describe my dog's behaviour. Ahaha...
hmmm, first bagging my teddy, now me...you've being unusually b*tchy lately (hahahahaha, like the pun?)
>_<
hehe..ok ok, i'll step it down a notch. Sorry =)
but i mean, i'm a b*itch afterall *glares nastily into keegs eyes*
cousins are annoying, everytime u feel guilty about the way u treat yours...think about how horrible i was and how i exploded...oh well...stay positive...she sounds so much better than the PRINCESS i had
*stop looking at me!*
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